This Week has been rough

Dear Diary,

I am still looking for a damn job. I cannot even tell you how many interviews i have been on because I lost track. All I do all day is apply to jobs, get calls, set up interviews and never hear from them again. I know it is because I lack experience, but how do people expect me to gain experience, if they won't hire me?

This process is making me insecure and its really raising my insecurity levels. I'm feeling like why did I even go to college? Why am I still in college? What is the point? I should be getting the good paying jobs because shit if I can handle taking six 3-credit classes, working three part time jobs and being an Integral Honor's student and a step club president who meets with the club at least twice a week, why do people not trust me to run things?

This economy is all fucked up, especially since when I do go on interviews, there is no one looking out for me. Being in the Bronx and going on interviews, they want to you be hispanic, going downtown, you already know the white people are going to look out for their own. I have not yet been to an interview with anyone who looks like me and I just feel like it is playing a huge role in why I am not getting a job.

Now I can easily apply to a retail store and probably get a sales associate position, but then they'll ask well why would you want to take this little minimum wage when you have a degree. Like girl because I need money, I need a job. So now because I have to rely on myself, and clearly I have to make up my own job, it is time I take advantage of social media, and I am going to invest in myself by buying a camera and start selling some things that hold value to me.